Monday, January 6, 2014

For Every Minute of Anger...

"For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness"

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Ever since I began school in 2010 I have found myself getting more and more angry much easier than before. There are several things I could blame this on... (1) the influence of the LA attitude (2) culinary school makes a beast out of you (3) stress.

All of these reasons are bullshit.

There is nothing to blame my anger on but myself, sure there are things that are upsetting... but my reactions would last hours after an incident and would come from incidents that weren't even THAT upsetting. Or, honestly, from nothing at all.

I caught myself beginning to do this again last night. My anger came from nowhere, I got pissed off for no reason and took all my stuff from the living room to the bedroom.. and honestly made my fiance feel as if it was something he had done.I had to stop myself and think - "am I really upset about anything?" - and the answer was, of course, no.

After this realization I had to turn my attitude around, make myself understand that there is nothing to be angry about, Sunday was coming to a close, and was this really how I wanted to set off a new week? It's time to start realizing these moments more, not only for me but for those around me.

When I began to think more about being happy for those around me, it really struck me that my bad moods can ruin my relationships. Being engaged now, I begin to start thinking about the long haul...would I want to be with someone that had moods like I do... HELL NO!.

So, for every minute of anger I can either choose to stay angry and distance those around me because of my bad mood... or I can choose to stop, think about the situation, and change that anger into happiness and bring those I love closer to me and enjoy their time with me more.